I'm depressed. Yes I am pregnant too. 22 weeks exactly. I get so depressed I have to run myself a warm bath, get in it and cry my self to sleep in it. Waking up in the tub get out, to look in the mirror and become very sad at what's looking back at me. Body parts that are more noticeable even in clothes now. I put clothes on. Lay in bed all day. I mean 9am to 11pm. Sleep for 4 hours, wake up for 2 hours. Sleep again for 4 wake up at 9am all over again. In between time, when I'm not working. Which I hate very much doing. I just lay in bed watching netflix and binge eat. Or have no appetite at all. My Fiance doesn't understand. I feel ugly. I don't do my hair or makeup. I don't dress up. I don't go anywhere if I don't have to at all. I sometimes wish I wasn't pregnant. Wish I could be free of it all. Relive the past.

I don't know what to do. I don't have money for counseling or anything. My Fiance lives 5 hours away. Haven't seen him in 3 months. I'm just so alone and drawn into black. My stomach turns and burns all the time now. Help. I'm so confused.