I need help!

Danielle
How do I explain to my boyfriend I don't want the lights on?
How do I get him to try and get better on top when he doesn't really want to? The problem is I'm too good (not trying to boast, honest, but he seems to almost orgasm just by me grinding and with underwear ☹️)??
And finally how do I express how much I want to have sex with him (we haven't yet, tried twice, both went wrong, and we've been trying/discussing it for a month)???
I need help!!! 😞😕😅☹😐