So this is the first time I've ever done something like this but with everything going on I figured getting it out might help. My husband and I have been TTC for 2 years after a little over a year we saw our first infertility Dr. After an HSG, I got pregnant it was crazy exciting..and then it happened the call that my levels weren't doubling the pregnancy could be ectopic and I miscarried. In the middle of our options appointment my Dr gets an email that they no longer take our insurance due to a merge with another company...another loss. She recommends another Dr and we meet with her. Here comes Dr #2 reading over my chart, saying i may have to get a tube removed due to my history making me feel more broken then I did before...I could go into even more detail but we ended up changing drs in the practice. Dr #3 made us comfortable, we trusted him and we move ahead with our first round of <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>. Staying hopeful, positive, calm everything you read to do..I cut out alcohol right away made sure I cut down coffee sugar everything I could for it to work. Took the shots like a champ and got through the TWW to find out that it didn't work, unfortunately i wasn't pregnant... How do you stay positive and hopeful when there aren't the answers you need...no one can tell you why yet...we agreed to meet with our dr for another options appointment to start our second round when we can and see if we can get some answers. Yesterday we got a form letter in the mail ..."we regret to inform you that we will no longer be in network of your insurance come Feb 4th". If anyone has any ideas on how I can stay hopeful or any words of wisdom I would greatly appreciate it. No one really understands what I'm going through and hearing it all happens for a reason isn't comforting anymore....