I'm trying to conceive. But i feel that i'm trying to conceive all by myself and not both of us. I want to have my rainbow baby but nobody would like to 'donate' the baby to me. Because my husband always use the excuse "I'm tired today". Never ever ending. I feel so dissappointed till i feel that i may just give up. I feel tired too to always beg for a baby and yet he is doing nothing to give it a try. I feel so sad.