So frustrated!

Trace • I have a 18 y.o. Boy. 14 y.o. Girl. Ttc since 2015. Miscarried Mar 2016/May 2018/Oct 2019/Apr 2020/Apr 2021/Nov 2021/Aug 2022/Dec 2022/May 2023. Ttc our 🌈 baby.
Took my other frer with fmu 11 dpo today. I see a indent in person but I don't think any color. So obviously at this point if there isn't a faint line, there won't be a line at all! 💔😢 ugh!!!!!!!