Disappointed but relieved at the same time.

Okay last year was really bad for me I was diagnosed with stage 1 cervical cancer.  I heard the word cancer and I immediately started panicking!  Anyway, I was told I could do a cone biopsy if I wanted to have more children.  But I came did some research and it doesn't mean 100% fertility.  So my husband and I talked and I made an appt to do a hysterectomy my gyno tried to talk me out of it but I went against her report and did it with another gyno!  Now I got the pathology report and the cancer was only in my cervix, my uterus, tubes, and ovaries were fine!!  So now I can't help but think it's to late I jumped the gun. I know there is always adoption but maybe I should have had a little more faith in my first gynecologist. I just feel really stupid right now!!! I guess educate yourself first after hearing the word cancer!  If I would have known it could have been really taken care by a conization I would have done it.  But my fear got the best of me this time 😢