My dream of having a BFP are slowly slipping away!

Melissa
Today is my last day before AF is due. I thought to myself while at work how amazing it would be to finally have a positive test, how one of my friends gave birth at 00:46 this morning to a beautiful baby girl and how I would love that to be me. 
I can literally feel my hopes and dreams slipping away from me with every new acne spot and every stomach cramp! My hormones are testing me today and I know AF Is making way for her surprise entrance tomorrow morning! 
I hope one day I don't have any AF signs and I hope that I have that week where I'm waiting till I'm 7 days late so I can take that test.. But right now in this moment in time it just seems such a distant hope! 
Sorry if anyone who is reading this! Needed to vent 😭