I'm throwing in the I quit forever towel. I'm 39 years old, lost her at 20 weeks & each day is harder, not easier. Starting my 1st period this week has freaked me out & traumatized that much more. I'm set that I can never go through this or try again but to me... that means I eliminate all physical intimacy too. Am I the only one that's this traumatized by it all? Yes I've been in counseling.