Ugh--ranting!

I'm a firm believer in to get a little, you have to give a little... and I constantly give. But I'm referring to giving blowjobs, handjobs, or whatever else my boyfriend likes right now and 85% of the time I don't get anything back. I try to hold out on him, but I'm so horny half the time I can't help but give in. We can have sex just fine, but when we both just want to mess around I never get my turn :/ I don't even like being ate out.. I hate it actually. but damn... it would be nice to get fingered or something! Hope I'm not alone when it comes to this type of situation.