Emotional Rant..

I am 10w pregnant with my second child. My husband and I have been trying for awhile. We miscarried between my son and this baby. So, we were over joyed to find out we were expecting again. However, not everyone shared our same joy. With that being said, let me state that even though I'm the only girl out of five brothers I've never been close to my mother. We've literally never had a good mother daughter relationship. Majority of the time I was being cut down, degraded or just flat out forgot about. Which in my house was not always a bad thing. When my mother found out we were pregnant she was so rude. Kept making snide comments and then went on to act like she did nothing wrong. (She behaves like this a lot and then wonders why her kids don't care to be around her) I honestly could deal with that. Like, okay, not everyone understands and gets the joys of this and that's okay. What bothered me was her cutting into a conversation I was in the middle of with one of my brothers girlfriend about how I really am hoping for a girl (either way I'll be happy)  just growing up with all boys and having a son already it would be wonderful. My mother takes it upon herself to go off in elaborate details of why I don't want a girl and continues to tell me that she would have taken 5 more boys rather than having another one of me. Obviously by the look of my brothers girlfriends face I thought she was mortified my mom was saying this. I know it was like a slap in the face but not uncommon for my mother to say these things. However, my brothers girlfriend turns to my mother and unloads on my mom... Like, "my moms name" I don't think you realize how offensive that was and if you do that is so shitty. She's your only daughter and you talk about her like she was a mistake. Emotions starting to come in her voice made me want to just grab my things and leave but I couldn't. I knew I had to say something to my mom. So, I told her the only thing at the time I thought that was right to say. I said, I hope I do have a daughter. I hope I have the chance to have an amazing bond with her. To have the chance to build her up and tell her how beautiful and smart she is every day. To tell her that she deserves nothing but the best and she is worth it. I want to do all the things for her you could never do for me. With that I got up from the table started getting my things ready when my mom started going off in the kitchen about how she's tired of me being disrespectful and ganging up on her. I think it's safe to say it's time to just walk away. I was trying to save face for my brothers and my dad who are close with my son but I just don't know if I can do it. My mom has been like this my whole life I'm almost 27 I don't see her changing anytime soon if ever. Sorry for the rant it's just been an emotional day.