Tired of being disapointed

Charlotte
I had my first son at 18, myself and his dad separated but reconnected about a year ago as a couple i feel pregnant in august last year but this pregnacy ended in a miscarriage(9 weeks) we were heartbroke and still are but all i seam to think about is getting pregnant and feeling hole again is it too early for us to be trying? I didnt go back on to contraceptive but nothing is happening and i just feel so empty and down sometimes. Being a mum and a wife keeps me busy but when im alone i ask myself why did this happen why cant i get pregnant. I dread my period date for the pure feeling of disappointment. Sorry to ramble on felt better getting it of my chest