Am I crazy?

I feel like I'm a few fries short of a happy meal sometimes!! I've been TTC (37/first time) for a little less than a year and every single month I convince myself that this is the month I can feel it.....literally! I feel pseudo symptoms because I've googled how my body should show me the signs before a test can confirm. Things like...I'm super tired today, I must be pregnant....I've pee'd more than normal today, I must be pregnant....I'm feeling flutters in my tummy, that must be attachment happening....I am in the mood for pickles and salami, that has to be a sign....I've gained two pounds, that has to be extra baby weight.....only to always get a BFN! I just want it so badly and it seems like others get their BFP with no efforts at all....I'm just so ready to be a mom!  I know my day will come eventually and I pray that all of you, my sister all get BFP's soon!! Baby dust to all beautiful ladies!! 😘