Today I tried yet again to take a picture of myself with my belly showing. I have always been overweight and when I found out I was pregnant I did not think I would have a bump at 20 weeks. I'm 21 weeks today and keep noticing that I do have a bump and a beautiful one (in my eyes because it's my first baby and it's amazing to know that I have a little human growing inside me.) No matter how ugly the stretch marks and the belly flap are. The sad thing is I want to be able to show my loved ones my bump but my insecurities keep getting the best of me. I don't want my child to grow up with an insecure mom. My insecurities are the only thing that I can't control. I am never going to win this fight.