CD 42 and so frustrated

Chelsea
I am now on the longest cycle I have ever had since ttc and coming off BC in August 2014. ( i have kept track my cycles are usuallh 30 days with the occasional 37 day cycle right after I quit the pill)  Ive taken numerous preg test and no BFP except for the faints I have been getting on 4 different tests (different brands) after the time limit. Im still having cm & cramping off and on like AF but she still hasnt shown. At this point im so frustrated with my body, if shes gunna show then I wish she would come on so I can get on with the next cycle.