The fears too big to speak.

I'm about to turn 30 in 2 months. My DH and I have been trying for a little more than 8 months to have a child (actually <a href="">tracking ovulation</a>) and over a year including the months we first began trying. I have PCOS and as my age increases so does the fear that I will never know what it feels like to be a mother, to carry a child in my womb, to have that unspoken bond with a human made of parts of me. It is the most terrifying and heartbreaking fear, my biggest fear in all the world. My DH doesn't understand my perspective, he has a daughter from his previous marriage and says we can always adopt but it just isn't the same.