I need

Hope
Someone to smack the FRERs right outta my hand...😩😩😩 Whhhhyyyy do I insist on torturing myself (and my bank account) like this⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ I'm only 6friggin DPO. Of course they are negative, no matter what dum tricks I try to play (you know, holding em DIRECTLY over a light bulb till I start to see stars, tearing them apart, the usual💡🙈❌