For a long time, we didn speak to eachother. I got married first and had a beautiful daughter with my husband. Everything was peaches and cream. But I got to know my husband better & at the beginning of our marriage he was really abusive and controlling man. I was scared and called the cops on him. He went to jail. When he got out, we were going through a divorce. We were seperated for a whole year. I found out he was talking to girls right away. I was hurt , I still loved the man. But somehow my ex came back into the picture.

We never did anything. He was only there for me, we spoke on the phone for hours. Texted. And Took me out. He is so sweet. He would play with my little girl. I started to miss him and I never did stop loving him. And he told me he felt the same. Our break up was stupid even though still hurtful. Anyway, husband and I reconciled, took marriage counseling. Things got better as far as abuse. Great father to our daughter. Helps me around the house. But everything else is boring. I never did got over my ex. I'm now 25 I don't want to feel this way. I miss him and have deep feelings for him. I even dream of him. He's not married but he's with someone else and has a precious baby girl. We no longer speak to one another. But deep down I wish we were together again.  I want to be happy but I feel like I'm not. My ex was my first in everything. He was my first love. Is this normal? I feel like I need therapy or some couseling because I'm so attached emotionally and I feel like I'm wrong for this and I know am. But I have NEVER cheated. Please ladies give me some suggestions in not feeling this way? Or help  😢