I don't know where to start. I've been with my SO for over three years now. We have had our share of ups and downs. The first one was when I went to use his old phone because mine was broken I went through it to clean it out and found a bunch of texts and voicemails and pictures that killed me.  Asking for pictures of tits and nudes and so on with other girls while we were together and this was only three months in to the relationship. After that I found out that he was doing Coke behind my back so I confronted him about that. I found out that he was also lying about smoking too when I confronted him about that as well. A year goes by and I get pregnant with his child which is great because things were better. But now I feel like there is no relationship. I've been practically begging for his attention because he's always on Facebook when he gets home from work. He never makes any effort to go on dates or anything. We have no sex life because my self esteem has dropped after having a child and also watching him stare at other girls whenever we do go out in public. I feel like I'm not good enough. Now after telling him that I felt like his Facebook addiction is killing our relationship I find out that he's been watching videos of strip teases, girls posting with their tits and girls sexually working out and so on WHILE IM IN THE HOUSE WITH HIM!!!! Needless to say I'm feeling like absolute shit right now. He says he didn't watch them and then when I called bullshit on all of his excuses he admitted to it and said that " he wanted to see tits and ass, he'd rather see mine but we don't have a sex life so that's why i watch the videos" I tried explaining to him how much it hurt me and how ever since the beginning he's been looking around. The video history goes on to while I was pregnant with his child so it's not so much with the lack of sex. I couldn't have sex then. I think he's just a pig at this point. I'm hurt I'm pissed and he really hasn't apologized. He just keeps saying well maybe if you were more happy and maybe if we had a sex life I wouldn't have done it. Am I over reacting? It's just this on top of everything else had killed me emotionally and mentally. I don't know what to do at this point. 😩