Upset at husband

I am so beyond hurt right now. We lost our baby on dec 21st and my husband hasn't acted the same towards me since. We moved this past weekend and I told him to please put our baby bassinet in a bag by itself so that way it wouldn't get messed up. He put it in a bag with arts and craft stuff! It has glue and all kind of other shit on it and I lost my cool. Like he got the stuff off but that doesn't change the fact that he messed it up. It's not like a I can just go buy another one. It was special. I'm so hurt right now. He doesn't even act like he cares that he could have messed it up permanently. Out of anger and hurt, I hit him. Like really hit  him. I know I shouldn't have. But I lost it. I feel like I've lost a lot more than just my child