If I get pregnant, yay?

Lacey
Weird title. Wasn't sure what to call it. 
I was sick (throwing up and nauseous on and off) and my fiancé thought I was pregnant. He always jumps to the conclusion that I'm pregnant. So. We were cuddling together and he was rubbing my stomach because I made a comment that it hurt (turned out it was my period about to make her debut while we were having sex....) and he said, "I'm rubbing my baby daughter" he really wants a girl and so does his mother and sister. It made me happy and he then said "I would be so happy if you were pregnant honey" we never spoke about when we wanted to have a child together , but we know we want a child together, and it made me happy that he would be happy if I was. We both have well paying jobs. We're financially stable (as any couple could be I suppose) and our love is so strong. 
Now onto my topic. I'm trying to conceive, but I'm also trying not to? If that makes sense. If I become pregnant, yay! If not, yay! Am I making sense? I just need someone to talk to lol