Disappointed 😢😢😢

My youngest sister told me im going to be an autie again. Don't get me wrong, im very happy for her. It's just that she was just pregnant not too long ago but had a stillborn, i walked with her through everything as a sister should but i've been TTC for over a year now and nothing. When she told me that she was pregnant my heart sank into my stomach i jus kinda sat there thinking y me. Y can't i give my husband a baby. Depression is real. AF due on 23rd and i no shes coming i can feel the bitch