But I was high so is it ok??

Like a week after I had my daughter (so no sex still) I had surgery to remove my gallbladder and I was on some serious drugs and well my husband was begging me for sex (he's a fucking douche bag and didn't care that I was still in tons of pain) so I took a bunch of pain pills and let him try it and of course I balled my eyes out still the whole time but he kept going even after I said no. (So yeah he sort of raped me we're getting divorced not because of this but because he cheated) but anyways I was super high after it and he told me to lick his butthole and I did 😳 does that count as me doing it cuz I could never do it again sober?