Does anyone else have this terrible thought?

Maybe its because I'm feeling depressed right now, I've decided to take a break from TTC for a while (sex hasn't stopped just not thinking about it like that anymore) I feel like my man and I should focus on our lives right now and nothing seems to be going right everything I try to do its like there's a road block in my way and I fight so hard to get passed that road block just to see another one and I'm tired of fighting I've been a fighter all my life and I just feel like I need a break something inside me will never let me give up it geez I'm tired and I feel like I might! Idk I'm super bummed tonight 😢