My first and only
I'm 18, recently started college this past fall semester. I've always obeyed rules, I had a stricked dad. Although I've had boyfriends in high school, I never had sex. Sure I messed around with one of my exs but the relationship was toxic, I got myself out. I was very pound of my viriginity and made it known. I come from a small town, there's not many who stay abstinent. Although I don't judge, I have three siblings who found their significant other in high school and started a family soon after graduation.
I was a good kid I never party or drank, I thought I'd wait until after graduation when I was 18 so it's no one's responsibility but my own for my actions and consequences. Before prom I got on nexplanon, I was gonna be on my own in a few months and although I trust myself I don't trust strangers.
A couple of months after graduation and my birthday I went out to party with my friend in another small town close by. It wasn't my 1st party that summer, it was to kick off the fall semester.
I didn't know anybody except for the people that we came with. One of the guys I knew because we sat next to each other in 12th grade English, we kinda became friends. Needless to say he was cutie and knew how to dress.
We set explore the other side of the house. Right before the garage there was a little room with a couch, we sat in the dark and just talked for a bit. He leaned in, soon making out got hot and heavy and I knew were this was leading. I've been holding out so long I wanted this, then he asked if I was a virgin which obviously he knew the answer to. No protection, (this wasn't a plan) 30 minutes go by and I'm no longer me I lost a part of me, that I could never get back. He left the room so I started putting my clothes back on he came back, saw me and he did the same.
We head back to the party just before we got to the door he told me not to tell anybody and wait 10 minutes after he left and then I could go. I was still in shock from what we just did and what he just said I couldn't form words. Then I noticed that his front pocket was on the back, I told him, while fixing it and I left out the door.
I found my friend who apparently was trying to look for me for the past hour. She asked me where he was and asked what happened, she knew the answer to that question. Even though I lied and said I just went outside for some air.
I knew I was ready for sex, but he wanted to do more, that I didn't realize I wasn't ready for, I mean it was my 1st time I had no idea what I was doing. I wanted to please him, but I knew he never finished either. I was ready, I wasn't ready for his reaction. Recalling what just happen made feel sick, then she told me there was blood on my face. My eyes watered before they had the chance to leak out, we rush to the bathroom, it was my first chance to clean myself, and pee I saw the blood... I burst out in tears.
That night she stayed with me at my place. apparently he snapchatted her later that night, saying he made a mistake and didn't know what to say. So she told him to leave me alone, this happen in August I had one class with him last semester and now this semester and he still hasn't said one word to me or even looked at me.
Btw I got checked just in case, I walked away clean.
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