Okay I just need to get my emotions out....When I was 6 I was raped...I am 17 now... I know it was a long time ago but I still struggle with anxiety and still have trust issues from it .. Many of my relationships ended because of it... I have met this amazing guy that wants to make everything better He wants to show me that he isnt going to hurt me. (this is personal but oh well ) when we have sex he doesnt make me do things that I dont want to. If I'm uncomfortable he stops. He knows when I'm upset. He knows when I just need to be held. I love him more than words can say. He means absolutely everything to me. I'm so lucky to have him. I'm so afraid that my mental bullshit is going to push him away. He tells me all the time "baby I'm never going anywhere ." and he just hugs me as tight as he can. I'm so in love with this guy. I'm so afraid I'm pushing him away ...