So most of this pregnancy I have been scared to death of the idea having another baby. We lost my son Keegan in November 2013 @ 4months old to SIDS and it was a nightmare and still is most days. So when we got pregnant in June while I was on bc and we weren't really sexually active at the time. Just spontaneously had sex first time in sixish months... And bam... So we figured well it went thru all those hoops and barriers it must have meant to be right. Well I've been terrified of losing this one during the beginning I bleed and cramped till 15weeks and then I've been terrified of what if I don't feel like I love this one cause I'm trying to protect myself from getting hurt again and such... And what if we lose this to SIDS too? What if my hubby changes from being excited to wanting nothing to do with the new baby? I can't handle that right ? I already have depression that I struggle with and now grief... So I've also been worried about ppd with this one... Just so many things that I can't even list here... Well anyway last week or so it's been the total opposite I'm getting upset and depressed that he isn't here yet I want him in my arms so bad... I think it's a form of baby fever intensified or something but omg I keep crying and getting frustrated and my hubby asks what's wrong and I'm like I just want him here already!! Please if y'all are the praying type I need some prayers that he will come very soon (maybe the full moon this weekend will help) and that mine and my hubby a nerves and worries are quelled!!