Should I?

I've been TTC for about 8months now...I had a miscarriage Feb9th 2015..almost been 1 year and I'm still not over it. I'm so emotional I think maybe because my date is so close..anyway my period is about 5 days late. I want to take a pregnancy test but something tells me I'm not pregnant ...I feel like if I take it and get a negative I'm going to be depressed even more...what should I do ladies ?