Should I?

Netta • Im 20. TTC #1. Had a miscarriage..10weeks and 2days. Heartbroken and devastated but praying I will soon carry a chid full term within my womb.
I've been TTC for about 8months now...I had a miscarriage Feb9th 2015..almost been 1 year and I'm still not over it. I'm so emotional I think maybe because my date is so close..anyway my period is about 5 days late. I want to take a pregnancy test but something tells me I'm not pregnant ...I feel like if I take it and get a negative I'm going to be depressed even more...what should I do ladies ?