Hey this is my first community post but I'd really like to know what is going on. I've been trying to get pregnant with my part mode a few months. Around December 29 I started spotting, went to the doctor for a random scheduled pelvic and told him I was having spotting and how I though I might need to take a pregnancy test but he did the pelvic and said how my cervix didn't look blue? Idk but I trusted him since I've never been pregnant. Shortly after that I began to get really ill, eventually bed ridden and in a LOT of pain so I went to the ER and found out I had a bad UTI as well being pregnant...I was really scared from being in so much pain. I had an ultrasound and they couldn't see a gestational sack but said since I wa only about three weeks not to worry too much. The next day I had a horrible event take place where I was going through an impaction as well as bleeding very heavily which seriously worried me. I went back to the ER and they told me my Hcg levels had cut in half and gave me an excruciating enema that caused soooo much pain. I was devastated about what happened. A UTI, impaction, and a miscarriage in a few days time. Never even had the chance to be excited. Very emotional time for me. I wanted to know what to expect with this miscarriage. I stopped bleeding about three days after the miscarriage. I'm no longer bleeding at all but for some reason I feel sooo much closer to my partner and we're back to making love like rabbits. I'm scared there could be something wrong , Im A hypochondriac now and just afraid. What do I expect to occur after this miscarriage and when do I start again? I have an OB appointment next week but I thought I'd ask. I feel so guilty and sad about it all. They told me there was nothing I could do and I did everything right but I'm just still so sad. What should I do next? I want my body to be in the healthiest shape to try again. Anyone have any advice? I should probably mention that I'm a methadose patient. I have been for a little over two years. Absolutely no drug use involved whatsoever and 100% no desire to ever use an opiate again but I'd like to hear from other mothers who have been pregnant on this medication. I've been detoxing for a very long time, it's a long process when you've been on it so long because it makes you sick. I'm a full time student and it's hard to move too quickly through the withdrawals because of nursing school. Please don't think badly of me like some people do just because I'm a patient. I'm a good person who made mistakes In my youth and now wants nothing more than to be 100% off of this medication. I've asked hundreds of pregnant patients about their experience and doctors Along with nurses who have delivered the babies who said the babies turned out very healthy but sometimes a little more crabby. Please someone be honest without being judgemental because if I could pay any rehab to get me off of this tomorrow I would go without a second thought. The withdrawals last so very long in my body because of the half-life build up. I want to be a mommy so bad and I want to know if I get pregnant again everything will be ok. Thank you for your time reading this, please be kind with your words. Thank you so very much ❤️