Something is wrong. Sorry long post..

So I haven't been going to the doctor as regularly as I should. I have moved around a lot the past two years, in and out of work etc. I have been really stressed lately and extremely emotional. I'm not pregnant, even though that was supposed to be the plan. We haven't even tried. We barely have sex and when we do its always the same thing. My SO on top he tries to make me cum, I fake an orgasm. Then I sit in his face and Jack him off. At this point I feel like giving up on everything. I try to inspire myself, encourage myself to try new things, meet new ppl etc. I never follow threw. I guess I'm depressed idk. The other day I was reading some of the warning signs for ovarian cancer, so many of them match me and how my body feels. I'm scared...... this can't be life