Miscarried Twins
Today I would of been 22 weeks pregnant. A week before thanksgiving, my fiancé and I found out that we were having twins. We were told that they were growing a little slower than normal but that wasn't uncommon. That night, I began having very light bleeding. I called my doctor and was told unless it gets heavy that it was okay. My mom said she bled all throughout her pregnancies. I continued on the next few days but still lightly bleeding. On Wednesday, the bleeding got a little heavier with a little bit of cramps (I say a little bit I had cramps the whole pregnancy so these were worse than normal) and I went to the doctor. I saw the doctor on call, and was given an ultrasound. Both babies were doing good but they wrote me a prescription for pain meds just in case and told me I had a 50:50 chance of miscarriage. I was told that I may lose 1, both or neither due to the fact that they were growing slower and slower. The next day my bleeding got even worse, and by Friday I was in a lot of pain with heavy bleeding. I got my prescription filled just in case. On Saturday, it happened. I lost 1 baby that morning, and j lost another large clot which was not a baby because I could see it in the other. I remained hopeful that I would be able to have a successful pregnancy with the remaining baby, but on Monday that hope was crushed. I lost my second baby.
Losing my babies was not easy at all. We were so excited for babies and had so many plans. We told our family and friends about the twins and they were all so excited. Having to break the news that I lost both babies was the hardest thing ever. I cried for days, none stop. I wouldn't eat. Wouldn't go out. I would just sit at home and cry. The day I went back to work, a customer came in with newborn twins and I had a breakdown.
I will never understand why my babies were taken from their daddy and I. Nor will I ever stop missing them and who they could have been. I would have done anything to save my babies, but the fact that they are together in heaven with their Mimi and cousins has helped me get through this.
There's not a day that goes by where I don't think of them. I look at their pictures and bears daily and wish I could of met them and watched them grow. But I know God had something bigger planned. God needed my angels more than me.
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