Its about a year I've been living with my SO but I've been recently starting to feel, insecure about myself, I have noticed a bit of a weight gain and it really hurts me inside because I feel like he doesnt deserve me and that he deserves better or that I am just not enough, I belittle myself so much and often find myself crying to sleep. There are some times I just want to work out but I just can't push myself and end up hating myself for it. I love him so much and I know he loves me too, he's never said a word to me which is sometimes the reason I love him so much because its saying that he loves me the way I am but I just can't live like this anymore... I want to go out on a date wearing a pretty dress and look pretty for my man, but I've tried so hard, and I've have given up so many times.