Hi, this has been the worst week of my life. Im 33 and have been TTC for a year and a half. We went for a follow up scan a week ago (at 9 weeks pregnant) which was a follow up to a successful scan 2 weeks prior at 7 weeks pregnant, which I went for because i'd had some brown discharge/spotting which had worried me. At the previous scan, they found two heartbeats. Yes twins and the bleed looked like it was implantation bleeding so we thought we were in the clear... We we're so excited about this scan however, the sonographer took FOREVER doing the internal vaginal scan and I had a horrible feeling then that something wasn't right. Then she said the dreaded words "I'm sorry, it's not good news I'm afraid" both their heartbeats were no longer there and they had died between the previous scan and this one. I was instantly crushed and don't remember much about the rest of that day or the next day where I had a D&C (or ERPC as they call it here at my hospital in London, UK) I had to go back to work the next day as was worried I'd loose my job. I haven't had much bleeding following this weeks procedure and now worried if that's normal. No clots, just a little light red spotting for 2/3 days. Is that a good or bad sign? I also now feel numb, like I can't believe this really happened. Yet it happens so often to so many people :-( part of me wants to focus on positives (like at least we managed to get pregnant & maybe I'm really fertile now) but the other part of me is scared to death about what happens next and if we will get our chance to have a baby.  Is anyone else going through something similar and had a positive outcome? Lost and confused and need some support xxxx