I'm exhausted. My husband helps when he comes home after a 12 hour shift, and I try to nap 4 hours at least if I don't hear the baby crying or fussing. To this I have to add all the chores and errands I have to do. I'm over whelmed, lonely, and exhausted. I find myself snapping at my husband and feeling resentment, mostly because he gets 6 hours of sleep at night if he doesn't do something stupid like stay up playing video games. I always got mean and snappy when I lacked sleep and the fact that we don't have family near by is what has me feeling this way. I wish my mom or his mom lived near to help, but we are just depending on each other. He wants to have another kid, and I don't know if I can do this again and with a toddler. 

I am going to discuss PPD with my doctor cause I feel I do have symptoms, but right now I don't know if BF is a good option for me,  or my family, and I feel guilty about how it could affect him health wise.