Why is this happening to me?!

Our first cycle ttc my friend found out she was pregnant the day af showed up for me. They tried for 7 months.
Now after a year of trying for me, my other friend tries once and bam it happens for them. I plan every single thing perfect and nothing. This current friend parties all of the time and it happened for them.
I honesty don't know how much longer I can take of this😢 we did Conceive 4 years ago but we weren't ready and I had the abortion pill. Am I being punished?