It's been such a roller coaster the last week. Wednesday I had some spotting and feared another miscarriage. Went to ER, found a heartbeat, so we were relieved. ..until 45 minutes later the doc comes in to tell us we have a 50/50 chance of losing the baby because the heart rate is low and I have a subchorionic hemorrhage. We went to our scheduled appointment on Thursday morning, doc said heart rate was then at 79, but measuring only 6 weeks, not 6 and 5 days by lmp, so heart rate still had time to go up. He said our chances of Mc were no higher than average. We had a positive weekend. Yesterday around 9am, I got a decent sized gush of dark red blood. I panicked and called my OB. We went in for a scan, and from the outside he initially thought the heart rate went down, and said if that's the case it's an inevitable miscarriage. We waited with that information for over an hour for a transvaginal scan. It showed the heart rate up to 100! We were so excited, but doctor is still unsure. We're still in limbo, I'm still bleeding off and on, and I have mild cramps. Trying so hard to have faith and hope, but so scared to let my guard down too much, at risk of hurting even more. If babies weren't such an incredible miracle, we would know so much more...but they are, and all we can do now is wait and pray.

Sorry, I just needed to throw that out to the universe.