Sadly after getting excited about another pregnancy, we found out this one won't last either.   In August we lost one because it was ectopic.  This time it's because there is nothing there.   I'm struggling on a level I didn't expect and not sure where to go.   Part of me wants to throw in the towel and not try again but yet I can't help but want to try again and it's tearing me apart.   I am thankful we have a beautiful little girl but we so wanted to expand our family by one more.  I hate this whirlwind and how I feel.