its been 6months but to me it feels like yesterday when my mom died she died in august i found her and called 911 and there was nothing i could do she had a sudden mass heart attack and passed before she even hit the floor according to coroner but everyday gets harder without her i miss her smile her laugh her hugs her advice she has always been my bestfriend i could talk to her about anything and she had been living with us for 4months at the time. things i used to be interested in i really dont care about anymore i hardly sleep maybe two or 3 nights in a 7day period or enjoy my favorite things i dont even like eating but i eat to live for my husband and our kids and it makes me more sad that we havent been able to have more kids and i just take care of my kids and house and try and stay busy cause when i think of her i just go numb and get knots in my stomach and start to cry and it hurts knowing that if we are able to have any more children i wont be able to call and tell her and her come see her grandchild for the first time she wasnt able to see my son on his first birthday or see him walk for the first time and we havd to see a fertility specialist because of our concieving difficulties i know im going on and on but my heart is deeply heavy and i really could use some prayers if i had one more day with her id hug her tell her i love her and never let go and my grandfather her dad died in 2013 and my grandmother her mom died in 2012!when my momwas alive she always talked about how she wish the lord would take her and one day she mentioned how she was sad because she wouldnt be here to see liam my son on his first birthday i always told her to not talk like that and how much i wanted her around