My baby will watch me from heaven(venting)

My baby will watch me from heaven and that's okay. They will be taught by God and watch their mother live her life for the baby who left too soon.  They will see mommy cry, and that's okay.  They will hear mommy call to god asking him why this happened.  But they will also know that there isn't a second that goes by where they are not on their mothers mind.  They will be loved just as much as a child in the physical world, sometimes even more.  They will be loved, and that's most definitely okay.