Venting !

so far i've had a perfectly normal pregnancy everything has been great.. I'm just so terrified that one day I'm going to go in and his heart will not be beating. I'm a FTM and as much as I want him and I can't imagine my life with him I have 7 more weeks until my due date and I just wish they would hurry up because I can't take the worry anymore. I haven't even set up his room yet because I'm so convinced somethings going to go wrong. I don't even say certain things because I'm so worried I'm going to jinx it. Sorry for the long post I just needed to vent !!