So I haven't started to bleed yet but I can feel it coming!

I literally don't even want to get dressed and go to work.

I genuinely thought this month was the month. I had in my head I was pregnant.

We've been trying for so long It's taking over my life. Well truthfully it already has.

We are already blessed with one beautiful little girl who's nearly 7. We conceived straight away with Eva.

Although this time round it seems near impossible. We've been trying for 5 years and I've had operations and taking clomid.

The doctor says he can't see any reason why. We aren't conceiving naturally. It's just not happening!!

I'm keeping my life on hold with the excuse I can't book on to stuff in the future or plan anything just in case I am pregnant.

I am devastated, that I am feeling period symptoms now. I feel distraught.

My body's cruel and my mind tricks myself into thinking Im pregnant every month.

Even when I'm due on my period I'm sick, overly tiered. The sickness every month tricks me into thinking maybe it's my time to have a baby.

I am so lucky to have Eva and gosh I love her and appreciate the fact I have been blessed with one angel. I just feel I have much more love to give!

What's going on ?

Let's Glow!