Didn't realize how hard this is :(

Well right after my wedding. On October.   I missed my period. Was throwing up .....at this point we were not trying yet ....I was pregnant. I was so happy so thrilled then November came. I had a miscarriage my heart and soul was crushed.  It took a lot to move forward I fell into a deep depression. I couldn't get out of. I was a wreck. Emotional and physical im 100 percent good now but what I went through was hard   We are trying now and no luck.  But only been a few monthes all I want is to be a mom. Been to the gyno everything is good but this month. I would have found out the gender  I can't stop thinking about it :(