I have this friend  he's a male and I'm a female , I'm a lesbian well at least I was , so I met him when I was 14 and he been my best friend ever since , it's like we're so close but umm I wanna say that it was spring 2013 he had asked me a question(knowing I'm a lesbian)  saying "can I suck his dick ?" I don't know why but I said yes , I never sucked a dick before well I did but not how I was about to do his so I did it and days after that and days after that I kept doing it he says I'm the best 😅😭😭😍😍...Weeks pass and he starts fucking me up the ass , me being 15 and vulnerable I let him. Our relationship grew on me and it was like we couldn't go a hour with out seeing eachother Then September came and I got arrested and got locked up in juvenile lock up for 8 months  and he was the only person I was thinking about. Mind you I didn't get no calls from him at all , but I came home and I moved , closer to him 😑😃 it was fun I loved everything about him , he would walk me to school every morning , sleep with me at night , come roll up , he'll go to work just to bring it back to me  so we could have a good night 😎💋 then we started to have actual sex  in my bathroom like a few times a week and you know I haven't had this type of attention from a boy in years so I grew feelings for him of yea I forgot to tell you lol we used to play fight everyday in my room and that's what led us to doing what we did all the time  we still play fight till this very day too 😍😍😍😎😎but anyways we rolled back in to September and me and him had gotten into a huge argument so he left me to go to "Boston carnival " I believe he left me for a bitch , but a few days later  I got pulled back in Juvie  after 2 months of being home and did another 8 months.  April came and I came home , through  out those 8 months I changed my perspective about him , he did me dirty and I didn't respect that,  so there was times throughout 2015 that I was seeing him here and there but I would walk right past him in hatred of what he did , so there was one time I don't remember where I was coming from but it was a few days before my 18th birthday. was walking up my street and I thought I seen him 👀👀👀 knowing my blind ass I waited till he got closer and it was him idk idk , I just got so happy , we talked and he walked me home. He stayed till I fell asleep. I didn't see or hear from him till a whole 2 1/2 months later on his 21st birthday on January 6  😏😏😏😏some how he found me and moved in with me ever since and we've been fucking. So basically  the thing is that I'm a lesbian to my family and I don't know how to tell them and I don't know how to tell him that I done caught feelings worth more than millions ,