Ugh. I feel like the shittiest person in the whole world. I love my boyfriend to the moon and back. He's my very best friend and i adore him. He's amazing and I *still* can't imagine spending my life with anyone else. He's always been completely open about what he wanted, and I thought i was too.

He doesn't ever want to get married because he thinks it's the govt intruding on a relationship. He enjoys an extremely vanilla sex life, almost to the point that it's completely out of his mind. Idk what to do. In the beginning those things were totally fine... but now I'm just heartbroken every time i see a friend engaged and I'm sad I'll never be his wife. I talked to him about it and he said he'd do it for me in a heartbeat but I really don't feel like thats right... It's not like he wants it, he's just doing it for me.

As for sex? He literally would rather just not have it than get up from the bed and get the lube if I'm uncomfortable. He doesn't have any interest in buying sex toys to help. He gets off in like 3-7 minutes. 15 tops. He doesn't like foreplay and even though he tries, it's awkward because i can tell he's bored. He doesn't like changing positions or waiting for me to change into lingerie. He doesnt like fingering me or giving oral. He is only in the mood 2-3 times a week. I've tried suggesting watching porn together or going to a sex shop. He's just not interested. He's still incredibly affectionate. He loves to cuddle and hold hands and kiss. He's always Taking me on dates and we are always goofing off together. He's always complimenting me and telling me he loves me. Like i said- I'm still totally in love and I'd never leave him over these things.... but it does make me sad. The lack of sex and adventure just makes me bored and feel ugly or unattractive. The marriage thing is something I'm just going to have to get over... he told me about it up front. I guess I'm just looking for advice or support. :(