I have being abused be me farther for 3 and a half year. Before that i was being tortured and raped for 2 abd a half years be the best friend of me brother. And when i get me relationship with me only men in me life.. He was Nice at me about this and he listen to me for a month after that i found out that he had a lot of deads and i was so stupid to pay al of his bills! He never give me a cuddle after a therapy session for these. He calls me a you now what .... And i may not talk about me past he even said to me that i have to call me farther and ask for more sigaret because i excatly liked it, and he had to leave me there so i had raped more! It's no wonder that i don't talk with him about me feelings with this and i wanted to see if he has change, so i told him about those horrible flashbacks and that i having them the whole day and night. He won't respond to me he ignores me when i say i had so much flashback these nights. I am so tired of these behaiver of him i feel like i never can talk about it! And i cant talk about it with nobody so me flashbacks are getting worser.. With that being said i am so curious do i have to continu with someone who hates my past? I hate me past more than anything, but he does'nt hate me farther he wants to have normal contact with me farther the man who raped me for 3 and a half year.... What would you do in my situation? This is something thats is her now for 6 years and i need to now is he it worth for me to fight for him, if i have to ignore the fact that he won't support me with anything i'm going tru for the rest of me life, do i have to do that? I think i deserve much more with me dedication and love for him with his addictions he had in the past his debts off but I paid them for him. Are i being abuse in this relationship?? I work 140 hours a week he does'nt work i have to work to pay me bills.. And do me home and dog and i still have to cook because he is busy in his dreams i think!! I wait for your answers... Thanks