Need good vibes

Brittney
Feeling down today well actually angry I'm about 2 months out from a miscarriage that almost broke me after 2 years of trying having that taken away from me was a nightmare and just finished my first round of clomid, I'm about 5 days before my missed period and I've tested everyday since Saturday.. all negative and obviously I realize if I am pregnant it's probably too soon to get a positive test but on the same side there's so many wemon that get positive test early. I'm just frustrated and having a hard time clearing my head and being able to live bc I'm so freaking worried about getting pregnant.. I'm obsessed. I'm rambling but honestly I need advice on how to stay sain dealing with (I don't need to hear that it's all in God's hands and trust in God please respect my religion as I respect yours 😊)