Sex life :( pt. 2

1. I never said I was going to break up with him lol. I really adore him, he is a really sweet guy and we connect mentally on so many levels. 
2. I get that my first post was harsh, I didn't intend for it to sound that way. We have not had sex yet because I am SCARED because his penis is so small. I don't want to not like it. I am not a very good actress. 
3. I've tried telling him how I like it with him fingering me, but he just doesn't seem to get it. He is only worried about when I suck his dick. Which I seem to suck the soul out of him when I do so. It isn't fair that I make him cum but he can't make me lol