Hello, my name is Heather. This is my 1st M/C.

I was so excited when I found out I'm pregnant  . -Barely a week ago. I was only prompted to take a test because I suspected I might have implantation bleeding and I had the other symptoms of pregnancy. Saturday, I went to the ER to find out why the bleeding was getting heavier and the doctor could not find anything in my ultra-sound and my HCG levels were not as high as they should be at approximately 5 weeks. I have no cramping now but the bleeding has changed colors. It now looks like fresh blood instead of old blood. It's also getting heavier. The doctor expects I'm miscarrying but I won't know the results from my blood test until tomorrow morning. I told myself if I miscarry that "it's just nature's way" and we can always "try again". I can't help but feel stupid for being so excited and expecting everything to go as well as one would normally expect because nothing ever comes with a guarantee. I'm SO SAD in spite of the fact that I'm realizing this pregnancy is just not meant to be...