Sorry TMI

I gave birth to my baby on the 16th, at 36 weeks, unfortunately the cord had wrapped around her neck. And I lost my precious baby. On top of dealing with the loss of my child I'm also dealing with all this "after birth" pains and bleeding. I just want it all to end. Anyway...A couple of days ago I noticed a lump that seems to go from my vagina to my anus. (So sorry for that image.) it's like a squishy ball, it hurts. Doesn't bleed. From what I've read it could be an outer hemorrhoid? Does anyone know what I can do to get rid of it? 😔