I run a porn blog on tumblr

So I've been running a pretty successful porn/human body aesthetics blog on tumblr for over a year now I created it literally the second I turned 18. Some of the posts include myself and friends who have submitted their photos to me (all legally) and some have been reblogs or pictures of my partner and I. A few months ago I had to drop out of school. I was a dance major and very in shape but still not confident in my own skin because of my eating disorder and it seemed that posting on my blog was actually helping me to feel like the sensual goddess I wanted to be but lately taking pictures just makes me feel absolutely terrible. All I can think about is how much bigger I've gotten since I started my blog and stopped dancing. What once was a form of empowerment had turned into yet another trigger for myself. I don't want to give up my blog because I've put so much time and effort into it but I feel like if I'm not featured it's not authentic to the purpose I created it for. I love nudity and I'm a huge supporter of body positivity but I can't even stand to see myself without baggy clothes on anymore. I don't know what to do. PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT IF YOURE GOING TO BE NEGATIVE OR SEXIST